Tuesday, April 28, 2009


This beautiful image sums up the past two weeks and present week of my life. It is clear, powerful, violent, refreshing, and amongst a host of other adjectives OVERWHELMING.

At bay the danger is minimum if any at all.
Light bulbs flash, Polaroids are made, fingers point in awe of this gentle force of water........But, imagine yourself.

Imagine you.

Small, human, stripped of all supports, additives and preservatives, placed unprepared, fragile, & afraid,
into this sea.

One that thrusts against any opposing form. Water that crashes into itself and is pulled back to collide violently into the shore again
and again,
and again.

Today I was that small unprepared human.
Tired, weak, irritable and at my tipping point.
this ocean was cast upon me.

These are the only times when your substance as a person is proved. Men are made. Women are matured. Or just the opposite, wills are crushed and patience is broken.

So the end result of me being thrust into chaos was a person torn open...into Tears.

At that point i realized I was some sort of container of myself.I found that the water inside of me found it easy to merge with this sea.
I must be honest and say that i have not been religious as of late...AT ALL. But as a friend whispered across the phone the most silent and heartfelt prayer into my ear, it is as if i stopped fighting this sea and allowed myself to be overtaken.

Things were not better, and i was not whisked away on some magical pony, no. But I came back into some sort of balance that i can't explain. So i won't try to.

Monday, April 27, 2009


make the world go round
make my eyes light up
make my heart go thump
keep me motivated

are everyone
and everything
that sustains me.
that allows my freedom to be free.

are everywhere
embracing me
supporting me
loving me
accepting me.

are relentless

are love.
I am in you.

Thanks to God and everyone who extends some expression of his unfailing love towards me with your support, no matter how small or what form it takes....i am grateful.

Friday, April 24, 2009

I'm Selling EVERY apparrel item i own!!!!




I need a fresh start so i'm giving you steals. almost everything is $15 and unda!!!! (with the exception of a mink coat, $40 a large pantent leather zebra bag $20)

Click to shop

Monday, April 20, 2009

Out for Blood.

I just had a very intense conversation with a good friend of mine.
We mostly vented about pet peeves and the like, the conversation covered the following:

1. Mean spirited people
2. Jealous/insecure people
3. Fake people
4. People who'd rather have dishonesty over honesty
5. Being tired of life at times.

Even if you are a mean person, there is HOPE. just try. Try to do something kind for someone, bite your tongue when you feel a nasty stream of words rising, consider others before yourself, be the change you want to see.
I am making a vow to myself to be a nice person, to be as close to dependable and honest as a human can be. Because after all is said and done MEAN PEOPLE SUCK AT LIFE.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

snapp:o'::da::day 3

Sunday, April 12, 2009


The "CAP-TAN" is due all credits for sharing this with me. Michel Gondry...EAT YOUR EFFIN HEART OUT!

snap of the early morn....

This foto definitely justifies being on the net early in the morn.
I had to share. (my mom taught me to do that)

Friday, April 10, 2009

snapp:o'::da::day 2

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Single ladies...feast your eyes on this!

Teddy Boys.

nuff said.

A teddy boy= a pumped up pompadour, a dash of Edwardian, sprinkle in the Victorian, and a fat teaspoon of swaggadash! and voila.....

The ladies figured they'd cause a ruckus too...OH YES BOIYYYZ there are Teddy Girllzzz.


Monday, April 6, 2009

in a while.

i need someone.

a god
to save me.

I'm not supposed to believe in you.
.................................the odds tell me to beware,
my intellect disagrees with your sweet nothings.

i still hear you speaking.

i need someone.
to make me cry like you do
'tho i never talk to you.
and don't know you well at all
but still we always manage to bump into each other.


i need someone.
a god
to stalk me.

to materialize in supernatural ways
to remind me how i feel now that we aren't together
i see someone.
a god?

Thursday, April 2, 2009


New Favorite THingy=Nic Sticks.

by Opi
you can get 'em at walmart for like $7.each